Running Through Petal Fields

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“ Do your best today, and tomorrow will worry about itself. ”

—    Little Lace Light

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Therapy 3.0

Third time to pursue therapy :)

Today we talked about the types of cognitive errors and which ones I identify with. Magnification and black-or-white thinking are two that I identify with.

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fragileminded:

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laylacon:

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tropical-cave:

brianmchale:

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I posted this three times tonight and had three people tell me that I helped save their life. Thank you to those people who have decided to struggle through to let us enjoy the gift of one more day of their prescence gracing us all. I hope that you all reblog this, to save another few. Because we all dserve another chance and hope in life. I went to the hospital 6 times before I decided to keep my life but I hope none of you suffer that much. And I hope you all can make that scary, seemingly painful, blind, hoping, wonderful step to live.

I want to help you in any way I can. ANYTHING. I mean it. If I had had someone stay with me and text me or talk to me all night, just one time, it would have changed my life. I know how hard those nights can be.

<3,

Love,

Emily

^I love this girl more than words can express.  

foundmywaywheniwaslost: I am always here if anyone ever needs to talk/vent. You have a purpose, Please Stay Alive. <3

Not just for tonight but for the rest of your life. You have so much to look forward to in the future that if you choose to kill yourself, it will be the biggest mistake of your life. You’re going to miss out on people you’ll never be able to meet, kids you’ll never have, a partner to love or partys to go to. There’s just too much that you’ll miss out on. You deserve and have the right to be here as much as the person next to you does. You’re just a drop in the ocean. You were meant to be here and you have a purpose. Don’t ever forget that. And if you feel like you don’t, just believe in yourself because you do. If you ever feel worthless or like shit, know that I love you and those dicks that tell you shit are jealous that you’re who you are because there’s something about you that they wish they could have. Please stay strong and never give up because things DO GET BETTER.

3rd time I reblog this xx

Keep your self awake, I hope your here to stay. This day is not yet over, let me be your four leaf clover.

Reblogged it and queued it so it’ll post tomorrow too. And the next day and the next so I hope I can save someone. We all love you.

someone messaged me this morning saying it helped and thanked me, so im reblogging this again, and queuing it. stay strong guys. 

I reblog this whenever I see it. If you don’t reblog it, unfollow me right now. If you don’t care enough to put this simple picture on your blog, I’m judging you.

The very first time that I reblogged this, I had someone message me the next day saying that because of me, they didn’t kill themself. From then on whenever I see anything like this on Tumblr it’s an instant reblog for me. After receiving that message it just changed something in me. Whenever anyone I see on my dash is having thoughts of self-harm or even suicide, I automatically go to their page and offer them even just an ear to listen. Nearly all of them I receive messages back from saying that they are grateful, and they end up sharing their story with me, and in return I give them advice as best I can. Several of them have said that their lives have gotten much better because they opened up and sought out help.

Out of those people, I’d say at least 5  have even gone so far as to say that they didn’t kill themself because of me. That is, I kid you not, the best feeling in the world.

I needed this reminder. 

(via mentalhealth-recovery-stories)

Today is

Today is…today is good :) sure, I skipped my second class, but I got homework done instead! It was a much better use of my time. I went to a part of the library that I had not yet been to. I got a pretty good view of the mountains near my campus. I woke up for my first class which is wonderful. I have been having trouble finding motivation to actually go to that class. Regardless, I’ve started the week of going to that class, so I might as well finish it!

Also, I jumped into a huge leaf pile today! Well first I followed a random couple to it and jumped right in. They cheered for me afterwards which was nice. Then, I met with one of my best friends and brought another friend along to play in the leaf pile with. That was pretty enjoyable and we garnered some smiles. :) After that I went to lab and got stuff done with my lab group.

So therapy…therapy is going well. I have only met with my therapist twice but I am enjoying it already. It’s actually nice having experience going to therapy because I can identify pretty well what I want to work on. My problem is remembering what exactly I had done before… I told her about my multiple, legitimate panic attacks while in South Africa and the couple that happened over the summer. I didn’t want to mis-term them, but it turns out that she also believes they were panic attacks. That is kind of a relief to know that that is something that we will work on. Something that I should mention to her is my trichotillomania, as I have not addressed that with my family or a professional yet.

So stresses in my life- at first I was stressed about my living situation but I’ve got that figured out. Overall, I’m trying to not let my lower-than-normal grades bother me too much this semester. Not every semester is perfect, and I realized that I kind of just started the semester with a lack of motivation and obstinance, because it was hard to transition back into a regular student’s schedule and life. I’m finding time to be me (well, hopefully that’s all the time) and relax. I’m really good at that not doing homework time. My relationships with others are going well. I’m excited to see my family soon. That’s all for now. :)

bohemianhomes:

Moon to Moon Blog: Free Spirit Spheres and are  set among the tall trees of the west coast rainforest of Vancouver Island, Canada.

New place = New state of mind

panic/anxiety attack

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jaspinder:

  • breath in for 4 seconds
  • hold your breath for 7 seconds
  • exhale breath for 8 seconds

repeat once or twice more.

This causes an autonomic nervous system shift from a sympathetic (fight or flight reaction) state to a parasympathetic response.

Use this for panic/anxiety attacks, exams, presentations.

Never not reblog

Tumblr got anxiety advice. Fuck yeah.

Read this earlier, and it helped me a lot tonight.

always re-posting this.

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a coral bun.

watercolour, ink and graphite.

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